I bet you never knew all of this...

Wed, 21 Apr 2004 01:45:03 GMT

go to my old journal...i'll explain.

this is so cj

Tue, 20 Apr 2004 03:03:06 GMT

Your True Nature by llScorpiusll
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The quality that most appeals to you:	High Social Status / Wealth
In a survival situation, you:	Act crazy as a diversion
Your hidden talent is:	A beautiful mind
Your gift is:	A loving heart
In groups, you:	Observe others' behaviour
Your best quality is:	Your abundant energy
Your weakness is:	Being predictable

Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

Wow.

Tue, 20 Apr 2004 02:46:46 GMT

Ok. LJ just fucking spazzed out and wouldn't let me update for almost 40 minutes...CJ (i_am_a_tripod )posted in his journal and I wanted to reply...w/e w/e...but that just wasn't happening. I hate the internet sometimes.

Ok. So Cj just dropped off the face of the earth...I don't know where he went. I guess I'll find out when he IM's me..( :) he just im'd me)

Today was a shit day...really. I have to start my clean day over...again...after two weeks clean...fucking...god, this shit is so goddamn hard ...

I really don't even want to write at the moment...because..I'm just so confused about this whole staying clean bullshit. Sometimes it seems like it's my only option...other times...I don't really fucking care.

Tomorrow is 4:20...fucking lovely. No dustoff for me tomorrow...I'ma lie and say I didn't have enough money to buy it...even though the can is sitting in my room.

Whatever. I don't want to type anymore. I'm getting annoyed by everything.

xoxo

Ha...ha...hmm.

Mon, 19 Apr 2004 22:57:39 GMT

Yeah. So today...it was fucking 9,000 degrees and I was in fucking sweatpants...I got home...finally...and CJ came over. He's still here. We did whatever and then we went to Mandee, I got a new tongue ring and a belly ring...it's maddd cute..
Regardless, here I am bored out of my ass now, he's bitching for me to cook him food...and...yeah whatever. Anywho...I fucking huffed dustoff on the bus today...maddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd funny. You really don't understand until you do it...It's like taking a super hit of crack...well whatever...I just asked my stepdad to get me a can...haha..how terrible.

Anyway...going to go cook now.

xoxo

So scurrrrrred.

Mon, 19 Apr 2004 10:53:29 GMT

Ok. I am about to freak out, I have to piss in a cup today. Why the fuck don't I just stay totally clean? I dno I'm a idiot. Plus, nothings gonna come up anyway. I'm a idiot.

update.

Mon, 19 Apr 2004 03:04:45 GMT

Whoa.I have the ring.
So yeah..we are "engaged" even though it's not really that right now.
It's more of a promise ring type thing.

Sure as hell seems like it's an engagment ring though...

Well well...
I don't want to write anything else about this.
I know it's just going to piss people off...

On a lighter note...
He taught me how to play chess, because he's really good.
And I beat him today.

Bright and early.
Today was a good day.

It was cute.

I ate brunch with CJ and his Pops.

CJ and I went to play pool.

Then we chilled with Glak.

We went to PARROTS OF THE WORLD so I could look at birds because I am going to get one. The one I had on my shoulder flipped out and attacked my head. lol. It was so funny. I hadda lean over to pet a puppy and my sunglasses fell into the pen, GLAK hadda get them for me. hahaha.

I went to an NA meeting in Oceanside, I saw a girl that used to go to our program. I don't like her. She wants to kick my ass too. Some big fat bitch. She has orangutan tits, it's so funny. Nothing happened though.

Did I tell ya'll yesterday I beat CJ in handball...hehehe.

Tomorrow CJ and my fam are going to the Bronx Zoo...I have to pick him up at ten after nine. He's not to thrilled about that. We are going to have MUCHO fun.

Right...okk...yeah that's about it. I am so excited about having a new journal. right now...it's so funny.

whatever.

I'ma go write in my other journal.

theres alot to do...

Mon, 19 Apr 2004 02:57:59 GMT

wow, this is gonna take awhile

New Journal.

Mon, 19 Apr 2004 01:43:36 GMT

Whooo..
I feel so cool.
Ok. First I'm going to post some entries that update what's been going on recently.

I'll be back.